I don't know why but lately, ive wanted to expand my knowledge... I've never really wanted to before. I guess my brain is enjoying the stimulation of some things ive been learning and figuring out on my own at work.

Like right now, im dying to go in there and watch all of that Carl Sagan thing with Ben. I've seen bits of it before and liked it, but when they showed it on TV it was always too late and i needed sleep ; ;. Ive always been interested in stuff about the Universe and physics. I also love Oceanography too but i could never pursue a career in either field. Even in florida there are no jobs right now for Marine biologists and stuff like that.

I wanna go back to school (Im tired of feeling stupid)....but i don't know what for...and honestly taking the basic classes right now would do me no good. Yeah it would get them outa the way for when i figure out what i wanna do, but lord knows when that will be and right now i need to keep working and make as much money as i can (in case i DO figure out what i wanna do and need to do more school then work).

Honestly, im not a complex person....so why can't i figure myself out and what i want! Its so frustrating!